I’ve decided that life isn’t as bad as I might have made it out to be.
Of course, I am still in Arkansas and not Utah…
but I’m going to make the most of it.

I recently got a job working at Discovery Island Learning Center.
I have a class of 12…3 year olds.
It is one of the most rewarding things I’ve encountered.
I love them.

Also, I’ve been reading a lot lately.
I was never one to read.
Ever.
At all.
I started reading to try and help myself sleep at night.
(since usually reading makes me tired)
Well, it has only helped me to nearly finish 1 book a night.
So far I have read:
Go Ask Alice
For One More Day
Dear Diary
I am currently working on:
Wuthering Heights
Driving With Dead People
A Portrait of the Artist as a Young Man

Now I spend most days at Barnes & Noble.

To top off everything I am going to Hawaii.
I’ll keep everyone posted on that adventure as it comes.

Life is not at all what you may expect it to be,
but stay faithful.
It will all work out probably better than you first imagined.

I want happiness.
I want to graduate.
I want to see the world.
I want someone to love me for me.
I want a family.
I want my momma to be happy.
I want my sister to not make the mistakes I have.
I want to make a difference.

That’s what I want.
That’s what I’ll have.

i arrived in arkansas a little over 2 months ago,
and i’m not sure where exactly the time went.

i have yet to accomplish anything i planned on.

this. is. going. to. change.

i know what i want to do and where i want to be.
i know what i have to do to get there.

my happiness is my truest means of motivation.

i will not end up like you and yours.
and so on and so forth.

my life has a purpose,
and i’m beginning to uncover what it is.

i can’t rely on anyone else.
i have myself and i can do this.