i knew i needed to come back to arkansas
even though i didn’t entirely know why
since i’ve been here it’s been rough
and i’ve wanted to go back to utah
i know that i still have to figure myself out
this is where so many things started
i can’t run to a little bubble in utah for this one
i have to stay here and face my fear
if it doesn’t kill me first
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8 months later
it’s been a bumpy road,
but i’m home.
a couple slips and falls,
but i feel good about this.
lincoln logs
the images have faded
but i remember one thing
lincoln logs
i remember loving them
and leaving them
all the while not knowing
lincoln logs and you
would i never see again
time does pass
wounds eventually heal
though questions still remain
why?
that would be the greatest one
i can smile knowing that i had her
she had strength which i’ll never grasp
a heart which seemed unbreakable
seemed
you leaving led me to where i am now
confounded at times, but mostly okay
luckily you left early enough
i only miss the lincoln logs
a new page awaits
one week from right now i will be back in fayetteville.
i’m not too sure what to expect.
there are certain people i’m looking forward to seeing…
and certain people who are not looking forward to seeing me.
ha.
oh heavens, let’s hope all goes well.
i’m needing a good arkansas thunderstorm, and possibly some sunshine?
the days are passing ever so slowly as i await my departure.
i’m ready to say goodbye to this place, and figure out what my life is about.
school is definitely in the plans, maybe some study abroad.
i doubt love or anything of that nature is down the road anytime soon.
i will be focusing on finding myself.
exploring the creative side a bit more.
being completely true to myself and those around me.
knowing that it is never too late to start over…
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