All Good

Starting my life over at 27 isn’t something I ever expected to be doing. It is a daily effort to stay positive and motivated as I’m trying to figure out life on my own again. I have a friend who is very close to me and knows the struggles I’ve been dealing with. Today she made me a “meditation lovership bracelet”, as she calls it, with beautiful gemstones I’ve been learning about. Carnelian is a stabilizing crystal, perfect for anchoring in the present, which I’m constantly trying to do (be present…be present…be present…). Agate promotes self-acceptance and confidence, encouraging the speaking of one’s own truth. I’m always so hard on myself, which is something I’ve really been trying to change. The Dalmatian Stone can reawaken a sense of fun and humor because everyone needs to enjoy life and laugh, especially when all seems to be falling apart. Lastly, the Smoky Quartz is a mood elevator- it relieves fear, enhances security and safety, and brings on emotional calmness. I’m looking forward to remaining positive and seeking the best in each day as I continue this new journey.


The thing about new beginnings is that they can happen at any time. There doesn’t have to be a life changing event to create one. Each day we are given the chance to become a newer, better version of ourselves. I take this for granted most of the time. I forget that I’m not defined by worldly things. I get caught up in my failures or what I haven’t accomplished and forget that I still have so far to go. Isn’t that crazy? When I take a step back I remember that I have so much to give. I have so much more to learn and so many more things to discover. This is what keeps me going. I meet new people each day and I have to do my part to leave a positive impact on their lives. That sounds cliche, but the thing with cliches is that they’re true. We’re all going through hard things all the time. My trials may not seem as important as yours, but who cares. Just remember that you don’t have to have your life figured out right now. The only one holding you to any crazy expectations is yourself. 
If anyone else is, then screw them.

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i spent this past wednesday through monday in arkansas. everytime i go back i realize more and more how much i miss the south. i’m trying to convince chris that we need to live there…soon. i’ve said it before but there’s just nothing like it. i can’t imagine raising a family anywhere else. i want kids with cute southern accents and rivers to play in that aren’t 20 degrees. i want a big yard to chase my kids around. i’m hoping one day i’ll get all this. being there just made me remember how little i like being in utah. i have amazing friends here but i’m really just ready to get back home. i doubt we’d live in arkansas but somewhere southern, anywhere southern…