it’s amazing to me how in the midst of uncertainty you can feel at peace.

i have no idea what my future holds, but i’m okay with that.

i have been blessed with a fairly good life despite a couple minor details. i know that it will only get better, and i’m looking forward to every step along the way.

i’ve recently had the chance to travel, and i have another trip coming up.

life is gooooood.

I always thought Lifetime movies were silly.

Children meeting their families after not knowing them their entire lives.
Couples finding out they’re really related and were somehow separated by some family feud 20 years earlier.
Family members dying only to unfold a web of secrets and lies.
People you thought were perfect turning out to have their own skeletons no one was aware of.

Yeah, I thought all of these stories were all the same and very unrealistic.

Until I found out that my life could very well be a Lifetime movie.

I’ve decided that life isn’t as bad as I might have made it out to be.
Of course, I am still in Arkansas and not Utah…
but I’m going to make the most of it.

I recently got a job working at Discovery Island Learning Center.
I have a class of 12…3 year olds.
It is one of the most rewarding things I’ve encountered.
I love them.

Also, I’ve been reading a lot lately.
I was never one to read.
Ever.
At all.
I started reading to try and help myself sleep at night.
(since usually reading makes me tired)
Well, it has only helped me to nearly finish 1 book a night.
So far I have read:
Go Ask Alice
For One More Day
Dear Diary
I am currently working on:
Wuthering Heights
Driving With Dead People
A Portrait of the Artist as a Young Man

Now I spend most days at Barnes & Noble.

To top off everything I am going to Hawaii.
I’ll keep everyone posted on that adventure as it comes.

Life is not at all what you may expect it to be,
but stay faithful.
It will all work out probably better than you first imagined.

I want happiness.
I want to graduate.
I want to see the world.
I want someone to love me for me.
I want a family.
I want my momma to be happy.
I want my sister to not make the mistakes I have.
I want to make a difference.

That’s what I want.
That’s what I’ll have.