these girls

I’m not sure I can explain in a few sentences how much this girl means to me. We’ve known each other since we were just babies, and here we are 25 years later. We became friends like most toddlers do … one hitting the other and the other biting back. We’ve seen each other’s darkest days and we’ve both made it out alive, healthier and happier. Many people reading this probably won’t know all this girl has been through, but I do, and to see her now, this happy, puts the warmest feeling in my heart. This little girl has saved her and she doesn’t even know it. One day I hope she comes to know and understand all the trials her momma has been through for her to be here. I look forward to watching this baby grow, even if it’s from across the country. I also look forward to seeing her momma grow and become the person she probably thought she’d never be a year ago.

water babies

I’ve recently been very interested in water birthing. I had a friend do this a few weeks ago and she had the best experience. I like being as prepared as possible for anything, so I’ve been doing a lot of research. A few weeks ago I watched a film called The Business of Being Born which gave insight into different options available. I’m in no way getting ready to have a baby, but I do like being informed. I love the idea of a calm setting, without the chaos of a hospital room. I’m not sure if I would do this at home, but there are birthing centers in and out of hospitals. I remember being in the room when my sister was born. I was 9 and have been scarred ever since. It wasn’t until I watched the film that my nerves started calming in regards to pregnancy, labor and delivery. When talking to a friend (a nurse) about this I was telling her that I don’t think it could be worse than when I had kidney stones. As I was watching the film I was laughing a little at how much the women in labor looked like me when I was passing my kidney stone. She asked if they gave me drugs, and after naming off the cocktail of medicine they put through my IV she calmly said, “it’s a good thing you want to do natural birth because if those meds didn’t work, then an epidural isn’t going to do anything on you.”
We’ll see what happens…someday.