lead with love 

Mercury is in retrograde and I have never felt it as much as I have this time around. Nearly every person I talk to is going through dark days, unsure of why it’s happening or how to fix it. One thing after the other has been tearing me down. I’ve felt alone, no matter what company may be around. When I did reach out to someone, I only felt rejected and inadequate. I was being “annoying” and that made me feel so much worse. Being vulnerable and confiding in someone is so hard and when you don’t feel accepted, it’s even harder.

But I know this, it has to get better. At some point, when you’ve learned whatever you’re supposed to from the shit thrown at you, it will get better.

Please know that how others treat you has nothing to do with you, and be aware of how you’re treating those around you. I’m constantly reminding myself of both these things.

There is a full moon coming up and with that, Mercury is about ready to calm the hell down. All of the exhausting mental activity and doubts will finally come to a resolve if you allow them to. It may not end how you’d like, but it will be for the best. Full Moons create closure and bring things to another level. Allow yourself the closure you need to progress.

“When we are thrown to the wolves it’s only a matter of time before we come back leading the pack.”


the perfect ending is just beginning

the truest of words

as I have said before, and will keep saying until my entire being accepts it

erase anything that does not build you up and help you excel to your most positive self

heartache will happen

you will be disappointed

but do not stay in a place you know you don’t belong

do not devour yourself in hopes of reconciling things beyond repair

demons are real, spiritually and metaphorically, and they are there to attack you at any given moment

fight with everything to love yourself and to cling to things that uplift you and back away from things that hinder you

these girls

I’m not sure I can explain in a few sentences how much this girl means to me. We’ve known each other since we were just babies, and here we are 25 years later. We became friends like most toddlers do … one hitting the other and the other biting back. We’ve seen each other’s darkest days and we’ve both made it out alive, healthier and happier. Many people reading this probably won’t know all this girl has been through, but I do, and to see her now, this happy, puts the warmest feeling in my heart. This little girl has saved her and she doesn’t even know it. One day I hope she comes to know and understand all the trials her momma has been through for her to be here. I look forward to watching this baby grow, even if it’s from across the country. I also look forward to seeing her momma grow and become the person she probably thought she’d never be a year ago.


I’d like to take this time to write about something I wholeheartedly support.

As I talked about earlier, I have had my own experience with this issue.
This is a cause that anyone can relate to in some way.
Whether or not you or someone you know has been assaulted or abused in some way,
we all know young girls and women whom we would never want to go through anything like this.
The statistics alone are astounding.

  • 1 in 3 women on this planet will be raped or beaten in their lifetime.
  • One of every seven victims of sexual assault reported to law enforcement agencies were under age 6. (Bureau of Justice Statistics, National Incident-Based Reporting System, based on reports from law enforcement agencies of 12 States from 1991 through 1996)
  • Studies in the US, Israel, Canada, Australia, and South Africa found that 40-70% of female murder victims were killed by husbands or boyfriends. (World Health Organization)
  • In Ghana, 1 in 7 (15%) females have been circumcised (Coker-Appiah & Cusack, 1999; Ghana National Study on Violence 1998,survey of 2,069 women and girls supplemented by a five-year review of official records).
I’m rising on 2/14/2013.
I’m rising because I no longer consider myself a victim, but a survivor.
I’m rising for those who will never have the opportunity to share their own story.
I’m rising for those whom have felt the same physical, mental, emotional and spiritual pain that I’ve felt.
I’m rising because it’s time.

Are you?