fresh starts, fresh goals

I recently joined the team at Luxe Beauty as Salon Manager. I’ve been taking leaps of faith in life, work and school decisions as of late, and I’m so grateful to be surrounded by such positive, motivating people. I’ve never had such an instant connection in an interview and everything just lined up perfectly. I can’t wait to continue growing as a person and employee as well as learning from amazing people as I work towards becoming an aesthetician. Life is good and you attract what you put out. Here’s to pushing myself to be better and do more.

LUXE BEAUTY
339 N West Ave #105
Fayetteville, AR 72701
479.582.3800
@luxefayetteville

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the perfect ending is just beginning

 
the truest of words

as I have said before, and will keep saying until my entire being accepts it

erase anything that does not build you up and help you excel to your most positive self

heartache will happen

you will be disappointed

but do not stay in a place you know you don’t belong

do not devour yourself in hopes of reconciling things beyond repair

demons are real, spiritually and metaphorically, and they are there to attack you at any given moment

fight with everything to love yourself and to cling to things that uplift you and back away from things that hinder you

the art of experience

when i left utah a little over a year ago i would’ve never thought i’d miss it. ever. i was so burnt out on life and situational problems that i just needed to leave. i didn’t plan, i just left. at the time, it was exactly what i needed to do.

i had the opportunity to spend 10 days in utah a couple weeks ago. i can’t begin to explain what i felt when i saw the mountains again. all i could do was take pictures of them – up the canyon, from the freeway, on the side of the road…everywhere. there’s something about being enveloped in nature like that – surrounded by things so much bigger than yourself – physically and spiritually.

i spent one morning alone, driving through the canyon and thinking about my life over the last 16 months. what goals have i set for myself and how close am i to reaching them? what lessons have i learned? i’m closer now than i was at the beginning, but i got stuck in the middle. having time in utah to clear my head and rededicate my mind to following through with things is what i needed.

i’ve lost friends, made new ones and realized who and what i really need in my life. there’s a lot of bullshit out there and people who aren’t helping you grow as a person or inspiring you to do great things. sorting through it can be hard because once you do it’s easy to feel like you wasted a lot of time and energy on things that didn’t really matter. luckily, there’s always some good to pull out of the experience – and as mark groves (@createthelove) said, “experience is what you get when you didn’t get what you wanted.” it’s so true. you gain experiences, you learn from them, and you keep going. and there’s nothing wrong with that.

as i work on finishing school i know that arkansas isn’t where i’ll always be. i get told that maybe one day i’ll find a place where i’m happy but the thing is – it has nothing to do with not being happy. regardless of external struggles i have never felt this happy and this much myself. i know that i have so much to give as a person and when there’s nothing tying you down there’s no reason to stay in one place.

some people understand that and some don’t.
and that’s okay.
the world needs both types of people.

and no matter who you are, the experiences will continue. enjoy them no matter the outcome.

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on the mend

As I sit in this familiar, safe place I can’t help but wonder how I got to this point in life. There are days when I couldn’t be more happy and thankful, then there are days like recently when I’ve felt like a part of me is missing. Like somewhere along the journey I dropped an important piece of myself. I keep searching…searching my mind, books, people and nature. Still I can’t find it. I don’t even know what I’m looking for. My heart aches for adventure and yet I feel stuck, unable to move forward in any direction. I’m so unsure of what I want or where I want to be that I self-sabotage. I take opportunities away from myself before I even realize it. Deep down I have a grasp on who I can be, but she’s buried away like someone fighting for their last breath. So deep in doubt and fear that I don’t know when or how she’ll surface. It’s a daily fight to be my best self and not be defined by superficial things. I’m constantly trying to forge my way through the muck in my head and come out on the other side. I want to live a full life. I want to truly fall in love and know that even my most broken self is loved by someone else and that, together, we can make it. I’m working towards mending my mind and heart so I can take advantage of this life I lead and the beautiful world I’m able to be a part of. There’s no use wasting what you’ve been given just because you may not feel worthy of it.
Keep going.