“Some days, I want to crawl into a ball and cry myself into a coma. But then I remind myself that every action is a contribution to furthering the chaos or to choosing to champion beauty.”
That word sums up how I have felt since the semester started. I think of everything I have to do and I feel frozen. But, if we take the time to plan and realize what is most important, things will work themselves out. It’s easy to push things off and do almost everything besides what you’re supposed to, but you’re making it much more difficult for yourself. It’s all a matter of where you’re focusing your energy and what you’re allowing to have a hold on you. I’ve realized recently how much alone time I need compared to how much I actually let myself have. Taking time to refocus your energy on things that build your spirit far outweighs the fear of missing out. You will be just fine. Trust me. Make decisions that will contribute to your overall well-being, self-love, and happiness. Don’t let past mistakes and absurdities hinder who you are and what you’re capable of. Just because you did something yesterday doesn’t mean it has to affect today or tomorrow. You are given so many chances to get your shit together and keep going, but you have to allow yourself to do so. As long as you’re nurturing yourself nothing else really matters. You’ll be able to focus on school, your relationships will flourish, you’ll be happier at work, and the little things won’t phase you anymore. Let go of negativity and make a conscious effort to be positive in all things. Eventually, it’ll become second nature and you’ll wonder why you ever let those negative thoughts hold you back.
Choose to champion beauty.