it’s been so long that my own blog seems foreign to me. do you ever get to thinking things are so good that you’ve neglected things that matter along the way? my blog is what i’ve neglected. this is my online journal. because, through everything, i’ve realized – what is the point of going through anything if you can’t share it and help others? i could easily write this down on paper and keep it tucked away…but why? the last several months have been a whirlwind. i have been on the brink of death – physically, emotionally, spiritually, mentally – yet here i am, typing this to whomever wants to read it. most of the time, my blog has seemed negative to a lot of people and that’s fine. i address the reality of my life, of mental illness, and real struggles. i welcome peoples’ heartache and trials and love when they feel they can reach to me as a safe ground to discuss the inner workings of their minds. because on the other side is joy and love. i could ramble on and on but I just want y’all to know to keep going. there’s a reason i have that tattooed on my arm. keep going. we are not finished. our stories have so much more to tell.
this is my fourth week in texas and i’m slowly wrapping my head around it. it’s hot, it’s filled with traffic, and it’s not pretty like home in arkansas. but even though coming here was very last minute, it was very much needed. mentally i’ve been back and forth almost every day sorting through my thoughts about life here. i miss the comfort of fayetteville but i needed to break out of that comfort zone. that is such a hard thing for me to do. i had to, though. i needed to push myself to become a better person. a more lovable, positive version of myself. i was not only hurting myself but taking it out on others around me. no one deserves that. it’s crazy how different i feel now. when you allow for the time to be selfish and truly focus on your own happiness, it’s amazing how much you learn about who you are and what you have to offer. i have a lot more to give than i ever truly understood, but i had to make sure i was taking care of myself first. when i began learning how to depend on myself emotionally and that i am in control of so much more than i realized, things started making a lot more sense. every relationship, whether platonic or romantic, took on a whole new meaning and i understood things on a much deeper level. i am so excited to see what this time in my life has in store. things keep falling into place when i thought everything was falling apart. sometimes it happens that way, though.
in the meantime, everyone pray i don’t have a heat stroke.
I recently joined the team at Luxe Beauty as Salon Manager. I’ve been taking leaps of faith in life, work and school decisions as of late, and I’m so grateful to be surrounded by such positive, motivating people. I’ve never had such an instant connection in an interview and everything just lined up perfectly. I can’t wait to continue growing as a person and employee as well as learning from amazing people as I work towards becoming an aesthetician. Life is good and you attract what you put out. Here’s to pushing myself to be better and do more.
I used to really enjoy reading but lately I’ve been slacking off. I decided to challenge myself to read more, especially this summer. I have books at my apartment I’ve never even opened. I have a library card and I plan to put it to good use – starting now.
I wanted to share a book I’m sure a lot of people have read or at least heard of.
The Happiness Project
The Happiness Project is the engaging, relatable and inspiring result of the author’s twelve-month adventure in becoming a happier person. Written with a wicked sense of humour and sharp insight, Gretchen Rubin’s story will inspire readers to embrace the pleasure in their lives and remind them how to have fun.
I remember getting it a couple of years ago and decided to pick it back up again. As I’ve been working on myself and challenging myself in different ways, I figured this was a great place to start.
If you haven’t come across Goodreads, then I really suggest you check it out! It’s basically a social media platform for all things books. I love getting suggestions and seeing what other people are reading. Click here to add me and I’ll do my best at keeping it updated with new things I find.